So i was wondering...
is it possible to have a self induced Multiple Personality Disorder?
It's known that MPD occurs particularly in childhood, when something traumatic happens to someone, this leads the person to develop another personality as a way of coping with the situation.
For someone who has SAD or social anxiety disorder however, this can be used as a remedy, inducing yourself with another personality to deal with your anxieties isn't entirely impossible. Although, is it still a MPD if you're conscious of it?
Either way, the brain is an interesting thing, and i believe the human mind is a medium to untold wonders. I'm a dreamer myself and believe in supernatural and stuff, so convincing myself towards this logic is easy. Wish i could give it a try though...

Anyways, i apologize for being gone...
Since college started, my life composed of sleep as weird as that sounds.
I go to college with an hour sleep and go home to continue that sleep
At least i survived my first week right?
Yesterday sucked however,
With last sem's procrastination, i managed to fail a course, the worst course to fail so i was told
This made me drop two courses and got me below full time for a student loan.
I guess i should be glad, if my grades weren't in the 90's during mid term, then i would have failed more than one course
So procrastinators, learn your lesson. I hope i did.
Anyways, i had to take a gen ed course and there's only one available, which runs at 7 in the evening to ten.
Wow, that means i get home at midnight.
The course was Philosophy of love and sex. I at least hope it's gonna be an interesting course.
And also, it being scheduled that late at night, there's hope that people get rowdy! ca ching! j/k..
Either way, i'm sticking to it, and buckling down!












yeah right
How's everyone doing?

PS: Recommended movies of the week:
Arranged
Simpsons The Movie (Eventhough i've watched it a couple of times)
Hot Fuzz
Marilena de P7

I am not a nerdy Brainiac.....unless it comes to games (or music?) and such, but there are times when you just have to look at more than just games . The term we call 'real life' or 'rl' as put by some nerds or people savvy with  teh interwebz is not something you download. It's the life beyond the screen, beyond the keyboards, the joysticks, and the controllers. It's that thing around us that doesn't matter when we're playing the latest Blizzard Release, or the Latest console smash hit.  that you're trying to wear out (as  revenge for  getting you broke). Anyways, the entertainment factor is huge for a person my age. That is why i give kudos to shows that can get their point across and provide current essential information that concerns our world and the bigger picture. Political Satires  and News Mockumentaries (John Stewart, Colbert Report, Rick Mercer Report, air farce, This hour has 20 minutes) are one of those shows But what is Our world getting into now? One of the current events that is bothering me was the death of Benazir Bhutto. World Politics is something that i am never big on....if i wasn't big on local politics, how can i be interested on World Politics. Anyways, I don't know why i watched the developments in Pakistan and Bhutto, but there's something fishy about how she did stuff, i've never really liked her politics....but in the end i decided that even her intentions might be wrong, i thought she can still bring the country to where it would develop. The trick is knowing when to get her off when it's done and when she starts manifesting her true desire. Just the fact that the deals that were supposedly set up with Musharraf and Sharif worked for her to gain power, so imagine what she could do for the country. Then.....BOOM! she's dead. Awesome ain't it? It's just weird that one death of a woman, considered to be the one of the frailest of 'god's' creature can bring a whole nation to its knees and sent it to a spiral of Chaos....then again maybe that's tthe result of just the media. Anyway, i digress.....No more confusing stuff..

I've been sleeping at 7 in the morning and waking up past noon...
This is gonna be a pain in the toosh when school starts again, and i'd have to wake up at 5:30 again.
Can't really wake up if you don't sleep, right?
either way, i've been watching one of the greatest show on the planet
It's called "Who's line is it Anyway?", easily my favourite non cartoon show of all time.
Wayne Brady had crazy musical 'skillz' and Ryan Stiles and Colin Mochrie with their awesome funny-ness
I don't know what  plans i have for New Year but a couple of people stated that i at least should have something..
so that's something to think about.
Also Favorite Cartoons/Animation of the moment : Jimmy Neutron, and Jacob Two Two.
As you can tell there is no point in this post...
Oh except Shout out to Microcutts for teh birthday. (still december 30th in here)
Ciao Everyone.

Holy sweet mother of profanities...
I managed to shop for the family with 6 hours lef for christmas...
Awesome eh! except i forgot Wrapping paper or gift bags....
Now i just need newspaper....a lot of them instead!
Gaaah......Dang Culprit of the day goes to Tim Hortons for selling their Addictive ice cap (iced Cappuccino)
Imagine a small funny looking kid with 6 huge heavy bags on one hand..and a small cup of Iced Cap in the other hand struggling and bumping to every person who's unfortunate enough to walk close to it.
Ah, if you didn't get it yet, i'm the small funny looking kid. All the mean stupid looks i got
 Dude, this christmas is too commercial though.....how much did i spend....i don't wanna discuss numbers but i could have bought myself a new system with bells and whistles. Oh well
My only problem is i don't think i'll get my Lil brother's present in time for christmas. My first choice was to upgrade the graphics card on the pc we have, but it's so ancient that i'd have to upgrade the ram too. I decided to buy a decent used or new gaming computer instead.
But doodz, procrastinating is bad and we all know that. Oh well, i'll just give him an envelope with a drawing of the computer inside...for now.
Maybe i should have just gotten him a new WC3 cd.....i can't play when he's on battle net and he can't play when i am on. We worked out a system though, 10 hours of the day he plays, and 14 hours, i play....heh nah, just ten for me too.

Anyways, just want to wish everyone a Merry Holidays....well i don't really know what everyone celebrates so that should work
Make it Merry!

Ah i guess i have to apologize for Being out of commission for awhile.
I have to thank everyone who posted on my last Rant-majig though.
I've been checking out the new stuff all this time and funny story...i've been listening to all this new music to the point where my ears started to bleed and i had to be brought to the hospital. Good story eh? I guess you just found out that i can be a fictional writer; and a crappy one at that. Either way, i wish that was how i spent my week. But for any college students there, or any student at all, Holiday vacations is coming up so it means the end of the semester too. Ah the stress of the exams, i have to admit those diversions helped though....for me to procrastinate, so when i fail my grades i can blame all the people who gave suggestions, the more suggestion, the bigger the blame. *cough cough* Heh, i'm just kidding. Either way, i'm just glad that all i have to get through is tommorow/today. Still haven't even study for the test tomorrow, and this is the time where i appreciate picking a far off college. You can get a lot done in an hour and a half commute everyday.

Either way, i just want to apologize for not being able to comment lately, but hope everyone's doing alright and surviving.
I still try to read some posts (good way to procrastinate) but just didn't have time to comment.
Tomorrow's the last day though, and just an advice to oh dear procrastinators, learn your lessons and do your work on time! with a 90% average mid term, i'd be lucky if i don't fail anything in my final marks.
Will write a major post tomorrow or saturday instead, Ciao everyone.

Ah another random thought....
i was just thinking about it for no particular reason, and whoever reads this will have an insight to how weird i am.
Anyways, humour me for a few minutes while i ponder one of the age old question of Homosexuality.

My first question goes like this...
Do you think there was ever a homosexual caveman?
My hypothetical answer to the question would probably be no.
(Although i can't help but imagine our male cavemen upon discovering the wonders of intercourse, chucking their phaluses to every hole they can encounter o.o)

Anyways, you might debate me on this, but my answer is purely due to the under developed brain of the soon to be homo sapiens. Thus, their capacity to think is limited by their actual animal/survival instinct. I myself don't know of any known expression of homosexuality between the animal kd (except for male dogs, rats, etc, humping another male which animal experts describe as assertion of dominance). With all that being said, i think that homosexuality didn't exist as partnership in those times was majorly due to a social consciousness of reproduction/ insurance of specie survival.

This moves us though to what i hypothesize as the origin of homosexuality. With the completely evolved homo sapien's brain structure, we were able to advance in civilization. There is no more nomadic movement , and more of established societies. One of the earliest documented homosexuality is that of the greek culture. Of men taking apprentices and engaging in homoeroticism. Now what did the greek culture have compared to our early nomadic ancestors? this was an established society, without the worry of survival as a specie. This was a civilization that spurned philosophers and inventors. As people had more time to think and discern, the survival instinct started to lessened.

This trend is a reflection of our society today, that partnership has shifted from  survival instincts, to just plain emotional attachment/companionship. With this, we can neglect the gender of the partner, and stick to looking at them as an individual. An interesting survey  that was discussed in my class today stated that 5% are purely straight, 5% are purely gay, and the rest falls between. We can't deny the influence of our culture though to why the majority still is straight, but we can't neglect the rising admission of non straight genders anymore. This i consider as a new classification of species which i classified as the "homo queerectus."

My only problem with this is the conservative part of our society who still makes their decision based on primitive instincts. Such are religions who are against Same Sex Marriage. The doctrines of such religion has been established thousands of years ago, and fails to adapt to our current times. Hopefully though, things will change for the better, where acceptance and understanding might just be the key.

Hopefully i don't offend anyone with this, but this is something that goes through my mind normally, and is just my opinion.
If one doesn't agree with any part though, it's alright as i'm open to discussion and i'm always open to learning about new things.
Ciao.

Faith is a man's last grasp in keeping his self sane. One of my favourite quotes from i don't know where exclaims "God Created Man, and in turn Man Returned the Favour."Faith is essential in almost every religion. Faith makes use of the gullibility of our idea of existence. A famous legend passed down in ages was the story of super Jesus and the two goons. The story goes on that as they are hanging from the cross beams of the public gallery, one of the goons uttered a phrase so great, that his whole life was voided and his judgment was passed just from that statement. "Remember me, when you enter your Kingdom in heaven," was the words uttered by the offender. Two felons with one main difference....the one knows how to suck up. It's a pain having to do it with christianity but unfortnately, this is the only religion i know enough about to judge. Faith is a big factor for christians. A movie i regretably saw called "Life After Death" seems to demonstrate the importance of faith in the religion. In the movie, it was concretely expressed that a life of good deeds is of no use if you don't believe in God. That a person who have lived doing all the right things is subjected to eternal damnation if he has no faith.

What kind of blasphemic butt-wipe bullshit is that? You expect me to believe that the all powerful and compassionate God that you believe in does not accept non believers? Your god definitely has to be a male then, because i don't know what would be more egotistical than that. "Ummm hey bob.....wow, so i heard you have good record...no crime, always helped others, and always selfless.....WTF! you dont believe in me? The all powerful one? You Go to Hell!" So what kind of nonsense is that? That's whybefore i die, i'm going to rob a bank, shoot someone, and kick some old lady in the chin.....and then say " Please lord.....think of me when you're on your Holy Jacuzzi with your hot winged Angels" Ca-ching.

Definitely old cartoon themes that wakes you up to glue you in front of tvs

My definition of cheating is when something romantic is done with someone else without the knowledge of the person the one is in relationship with.

SO what is the science of cheating really? Any known philosophies about it? How about different stats to go about?

The logic of cheating is usually that guys (or girls) are just stupid, or are just out to hurt someone when they cheat. Thinking about it, isn't cheating done because they don't want to hurt the person? What is the importance of hiding cheating from a partner? based on my definition, If it's in the knowledge of the boyfriend or girlfriend, then that is not cheating, but just plain 'sending a message' of wanting to break up. I'm not saying though that people cheat because they love the person they are with. Just because one doesn't want to hurt a partner doesn't mean they love that partner. Then again, some studies say that cheating is healthy in a relationship. Flings from here and there are 'essential' to keep the marriage stable and happy according to these studies.
With all that being said, i do not condone cheating, nor do i think that cheaters should be prosecuted to hellish punishment. I've known people who have been subjected to tests of temptations and have uttered stupid phrases such as "i'm not that type of person, " Or "I'm smart enough for that" But in the end gives in to this tirade of what others might discuss as 'immoral' socializations. I myself have cheated and been cheated upon, but cheating is a matter of engaging and learning from your mistakes. What can you do right? There is only one thing i ask for the cheaters out there....give up when you're caught. Fate gives you opening as a way to tell you that things aren't supposed to be like this. Don't say, "Oh it's not what it seem! I accidentally tripped and my vagina accidentally went on top of his dick! I'm sorry!" Don't be a fucktard to cling on the person you cheated on if you don't love them just because of the fear of hurting them. I understand some people don't let you let go of them, but that's a whole other entry. This idea of life of gratification makes us do crazy things.....to justify the nonsense that 'we only live once.' Yea, douche, we live once so that gives you the right to be fucking stupid and completely insensitive. Let's waste life because we only have it once, right? And you'd think it should be the opposite....Cheating will always exist especially in a world driven by superficiality. So please....if you're gonna cheat, don't be stupid about it. Life will throw something at your face if you are. Anyways, i'll cut it short for now. peace.

Another day, another time, another hour wasted. A new spot to write down what everyone thinks of, but no one talks about. A way to detach myself to college life? Probably. Way to alleviate boredom?most likely. Way to express eccentric thoughts with minimal set back? Of course.
So Let's leave the things that bother us at least for a little while and attempt to comprehend what goes on in the minds of all the 'crazies